Clementine...oh sweet clementine, you are the only thing I can taste this morning. I've eaten two of you already this morning and I am hoping that the boost of vitamin C will help fight the war that is being fought in my sinuses right now. My body needs to have energy to fight other wars. But you are sweet an juicy and I'm so glad it is clementine time!!!
I got another box yesterday. Tea cups this time and I can't wait to use them. Thank you family for sending the boxes, they keep my spirits up and are making my house feel more like home with every box!
Avi is already off to chemo. We are just 3 treatments away from being at an end with this cycle. He's going to have a consultation with the Radiologist in a week or so. I love how they keep telling us not to worry beyond the next step but they keep giving us more information. "Don't worry about Radiation...but you should know it may cause..." you can fill in the blank right? At this point in time Avi shouldn't expect to grow any hair on his head till spring. I know, what do I really have to complain about? Avi is technically in remission, we are getting ready for the holidays, we are loved and supported, we love and support each other. Why do I still feel the need for more? Maybe the marathon of cancer is wearing more than I am willing to admit, even to myself. I'm sure I will endure and pull the energy I need from some where. I was told yesterday that the universe must recognize the fact that my capacity for enduring and care-taking has not yet been met and I can and will handle this until the end. Then I want a vacation in Hawaii.
Today I am grateful for...
blankets...they keep my hands busy
christmas lights
tea cups
computers that reach to the chair
mornings alone
Avi for enduring, not that he has had much choice but going through this with each other must be so much better than going through it alone.
We made it one more day.
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