Today is friday and Avi has the day off of chemo. It doesn't feel like a day off. He woke up fine and within the hour had a bin next to him to catch the vomit. It makes me think of all the movies that I have watched where they make the actor look gray to show the cancer. Avi is gray. This is not the movies...it barely feels like reality. Today is part of the nightmare of cancer and it is days like this where I can't see then end. My head keeps going back to the thought "this is no Oprah show" but do they ever really prepare you for cancer?
Today my thoughts will stay with the holidays though. I will make sugar cookies with munchkin and then come home to start the weekend long task of cleaning the house. The best part of that will be to finish decorating the house for the holidays. This seems really ambitious and based on the heavy sighs that are happening next to me I made end up just cleaning up puke from the carpets.
Which brings me to my gratitude list...
Kimb's early morning messages
coffee
anti-nausea medicine
loner holiday decorations
quiet mornings that don't involve the wonderful staff of Jefferson Hospital
making it one more day
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