Typically I'm not one for chemical aids unless it is for the turtle and well with the cancer he needs it. I spent all day yesterday in high anxiety and stress over the turtle being so sick when I left and the knowledge that his mother would be spending the afternoon in our borderline disgusting house was enough to put me over the edge. I actually called a couple of times to apologize.
I got home and my kitchen was clean. It was amazing and turtle was feeling better, it was enough that I was totally pushed over the edge and started crying. Turtle handed me a couple of pills and told me to take them and I would feel better. I did...apparently they were anti-anxiety pills of a VERY low dose, but it was enough for me to enjoy the rest of my evening with him and sleep the best night's sleep that I have had in at least 6 weeks. I woke up singing. He just stared at me while I was singing and making coffee. I feel great. So great that I refuse to have expectations of myself today...my kitchen is already clean.
Now I am going to enjoy my day off with my guy....
Today I am grateful for...
clean dishes
soft blankets
saturday mornings
blue coffee cups
lazy-boys
I made it one more day
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