Clarity with coloring pictures

After a morning of anxiety over what to do for the holiday party and finally sending the email to cancel it right before leaving for work so I couldn't change my mind, I realized while coloring snowmen that I...we would be ok and it was the right decision. Part of this could have been the two conversations that I had that completely and totally validated my feelings and the anger I was feeling over the whole insurance situation. At this point I know the anger will diminish with time. It reminds me that like Avi and I were not handed the "How to" manual for fighting and surviving the cancer monster, our friends and our family were left out on a limb as well, and are struggling for a balance. It is a shame they have stopped taking their cues from us and started just doing what they think is best for us. Maybe that is our fault though, may be we ask for to much, and in the fear of asking for too much I think we've stopped asking for anything at all.